It's Over..

I walk out of the room with a shattered heart and a pierced heart. Wondering if that was enough. Did I reach my own expactation? Huh....
It all happen a few weeks back,
the day of the audition had arrive
i was so scared
I practiced and practiced and practiced and practiced... (i shall explain no further)
Every second counts as they flew by so quickly
At exacly 2.10
RRRRRRRIIIIIIIIINNNNNNNNNNNNGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!
The school bells rings
My heart frost for that slight moment as I regain my caution
Chris (My bestest friend) told me
"It's time"
We walked up to the audition hall located at the top floor
He was anticapated
I was scared
As we walked up,
I sang my heart out to lose that shiver out of my spinal cord
We reached the hall
Ren Zhang, Daniel Song, Kean Wooi, and Ryan (He stayed for a while only) were there
The teacher told all the particapants to gather at the front to wait for our turn
Singers after singers came
Songs after songs
Then...
IT WAS MY TURN
I walked up to the front
Held the microphone
And...
Sang!!!
TERRIBLY.............................................
AH...........................................................
Oh god save me!
After finishing the song
The crowd went wild cheering for me
But I knew I sang badly
The judges looked impressed but they told me to sing longer
Ah...
So relieve

Days went pass
A week went pass
Oh,
How I wish I could replay that moment
Do it all over again

Finally,
I told the teacher I quit
I could not stand the pressure
If I made it to the finals,
I didn't want to be imberassed
So, I took such action
He said 'Tak apa (That's ok) '
He told me actually i made it to the finals

I didn't bother
So,
I can now enjoy my ko-kurikulum night
Without stress...

*I would like to thank all your support and guidance
*I decided to sing the song "Never Alone" by Jim Brickman (Thanks to Cassandra)

I need all of your help!!!

One week and one more day and counting... I'm still lost in the midst of the dark shadow... You maybe be wondering what I'm talking about. It's KOKURIKULUM NIGHT...There's a singing competition during that night. First I have to pass the audition of course, which I have to sing a song, which I don't know what song to sing yet. That's when you come in... I need your suggestion on what song to sing. I don't want a song that is...

a) too slow
b) too hippy
c) oldie
d) other than English
e) sung by a lady singer
f) too hard to sing
g) difficult to get a minus one version (a song with music only)

These are the suggestions that Cassandra, Oon Feng, Jeremiah, and other people suggested me to sing:
a) 'Obsessed' by Jeremiah (Which is sooo stupid)
b) 'Never alone' by Cassandra
c) 'This is my home' by Oon Feng
d) 'No boundaries' by Cassandra (Do you know how hard it is too sing that song?)
e) 'Hero' by Oon Feng
A lot more... I've forgotten...

For now, I'm planning to sing the song 'Satu Malaysia' by all the famous singers singing together... It's pretty nice... I love the chorus.... BUT (Why must there be a 'but' in everything that's nice) the song consists of tamil and mandarin lyrics. The mandarin lyrics I can concure but the Tamil part WILL be a BIG PROBLEM

I need you're help to give me suggestions on what song to sing... Please.... HELP ME....

Oh ya... I've forgotten to mention... Only five students will be selected from the audition and get to sing during kokurikulum night. Not only that, the five students will be trained my five teachers ,who can sing of course. I particapated last year but unfortunally I got 5th out of 12 other contestants. All the other contestants were all about form 4 to 6. It was sooo scary. Last year when I sang during the audition, I screwed up the song. Nooo... I taught it was over. In the end, I went to the finals with the other 12 contestants and I screwed up the song AGAIN. Can't blame anyone... The WORSE thing was my Geography teacher, I shall not mention names, was shouting at me to dance cause I was too stiff... Telling you, IT WAS SOOOOOOOO EMBARASSING... After I finish singing, I was so relieve. Collected my trophy and i had to settle for fifth place.

So I desperatelly need you help because
1) I have a terrible voice
2) I'm bad at choosing songs
3) I'm lost
4) I want to win

Actually, I wanted to quit cause I had a feeling i will screw up the song again, make the judges deaf and I really don't want to go down the same old road like last year...

I asked others should I join or not and most of them said yes. Even the teachers from my school asked me to join. Oh gosh, How embarassing it was...

So, PLEASE HELP ME BY GIVING SUGGESTIONS WHAT SONG TO SING and SHOULD I JOIN THE COMPETITION OR NOT and WHY...

Your suggestions will be taken in consideration... Thanx...

The results are out!!!!!

2 pm as I was walking down the stairs. It was like any normal day. Suddenly, I heard the phone ring and I answered it. Not even a second drove by and the caller hang up. I was puzzled. I called Kean Wooi and asked if he called me. He said no. He then said ' Bernard, I have good news and bad news'. I was wondering what will his random topic be again. 'The good news is the NIE results came out today. The bad news is... WE DID NOT GET SELECTED!!!!' he said. I was quite upset but I regain my caution. I told him that's ok but at least we did our best. We then spent about an hour on the phone how would we split the pizza. We came to a conclusion and it goes like this.
1) Mr Liang for lending us a helping hand and guiding us through this unforgetable journey
2) Miss Juanita for providing us an empty newpaper cover when we desperately needed it
3) Wei Shan's dad for providing us transport to the printing shop twice
4) Sean for teaching us design techics we could use in our magazine
5) Justin's mum (Aunty Shanti) for lending us her house and being a wonderful host
6) Ray Gan for being our model of the day
7) Kean Wooi's mum for providing us transport back home
8) Veronica Pau for her guidance
9) Ren Zhang's mum for providing us transport too
10) Jordan Scully for being a faithful model
If your name is not mention here, I would like apologize. Thanks everyone for all the support and guidance through out this unforgetable journey. I have to say, this is one of the best years I had as a teenager and the best part is that i get to spent it with my friends. Thanks to all and God bless...
*PS.Whoever would like to see the finalists, use can see today's nespaper (27-8-2009) at page N22.*

The journey I'll never forget

A journey i'll never forget... Working with my friends, I have to admit it was fun and challenging. We had ups and downs through this unforgetable journey. Brainstorming through the endless hours on the phone and quarelling with one another paid off. Our team got selected out of the hundreds of teams in Penang. Actually five teams got selected. For now,we won the RM200 worth of pizzahut vouchers and PRAYING we go to the finals. In the final round, we get to present our NIE magazine. Today, I am going to tell you our journey of this ending road which lead us to success. I post this gossip girl picture because we used this as an elastrasion that we as youths change just in order to fit in just like Jenny Humpfree (the girl in pink)

This is a picture of Justin. He is suppose to look emo but I guess he went over board

This picture was (suppose) to simbolize him commiting suicide

We had a vision to make this picture look like he is asking for help. But...what do you think?

This is Ong Ray Gan (Our model) His is chilling out playing basketball while he is suppose to be posing.

This is also Ray Gan looking at the mask. Actually, I had a vision to make this look like this looking at the past.

This is a random picture

Him chilling out AGAIN!!!!

Now, I don't know why we took that picture. Oh ya... Emo?

Another random picture. We were actually just trying it on Justin before snapping the photos.

Now at Justin's house. We weren't able to use this picture cause he was smiling. Don't worry, Ray Gan was holding his hand while I took the photo. This was dangeroues but I guess we do what it takes to wiin. While we took this picture, the neighbour saw justin and he quickly went in. For me, i was downstairs taking the picture like above and I ran

That's Justin and the hand with the blue thing on the hand is Ray Gan. We wanted to make it look very dramatic by putting tomato sauce but they both ate it up. I was laughing like mad....

After a hard day, we feast. PIZZAHUT.....YUM..... We ordered two pizzas, a bottle of coke and the chicken on the stick. Of course we paid. It was nice.

We left the last piece and since Ray Gan stays so so so far away and STILL willingly come to help us. We gave him the last piece but he refused. So, Justin had to pratically force it down his throat.

We were cleaning up because Justin had to plug the weeds at his garden and we helped him to get the job done faster.

Justin calling pizzahut....

Ray Gan posing with the money

Oh ya, we also drank can drinks sponsored by aunty Shanti (Justin's mum) Thanks aunty Shanty!!

Justin posing burning the mask

Ray Gan is posing with Justin's hand to simbolize that Friends never let you go through the thick and thin

Our model resting after a hard day's work...

I love this picture!!!!!!!! It's nice...

This is lame....

Too dark...

Me picking the weeds.... It was fun actually...

All these were drawn by Sarah Chong. Thanks!!!

From here till the end is taken in school:

The person holding the book is Ren Zhang trying to temp the boy (kean Woi). We placed books arranged properly because with friends there, everything is 'OK...'

That's Wei Shan. We threw rubbish because that simbolizes hactic and trouble

The boy had to make a desicion

As you can see, Kean Woi and Wei Shan are looking at Ren Zhang because he is refusing to cooperate by pulling his pants up. HAHAAHAHAHAHAHA...

Our two models quarelling which one fits the roll.... Silly boys...

Ren Zhang trying his very very very best to act gangsterish... It seems to be working...

I laughed when I was this picture because Ren Zhang and Kean Woi were refusing to look at the camera and Wei Shan was scolding them...

Here is another picture... You have to admit... It is funny...

At last, I'm in a picture... I'm the person who is in the middle...This picture simbolizes that friends are in the of this hactic and hard journey of life. We were suppose to look happy but Wei Shan doesn't.

I have no idea what does this mean...

I was suppose to act emo,sad and all alone but Wei Shan appeared and ruin the picture...

Ren Zhang kinda dramatic

That's me simbolizing wearing a mask... This picture actually shows that youths wear a mask to show to the world who they aren't...

Wei Shan posing emoish...

Same goes to Kean Woi...

This picture shows a mask dropping as this is actually what we should do...

Me abonding the mask....

... 'THE MASK'...

This is a random picture of Ren Zhang...

We weren't able to use this picture for the same reason with Justin, THEY WERE SMILING!!!

This one too... But it was not easy as they had to look out for teachers that were passing by... We tried may times but ruin by just a single smile...

We were snapping 'friends leaving us' picture when Eugene came and started teaching the word 'push-ku' which simply means cannon...

Jordan too came and volunteeres to pose...

This idea was Kean Woi... This picture shows leaving the mask behind... Pretty creative...

This pose is actually his original pose... This is how he looks when he is sad...Another attempt..And another.... YET FAILED!!!!!!!!!!!Ren Zhang going around interviewing people.... It was kinda tough...

So this was our journey, it has been fun and please do leave a comment... Thank you...... God bless...

An unforgetable exhibition

I went for an exhibition along with aunty Joyce and my mum, which was organized by Uplands. Before we proceeded to the exhibition, we had to wait at a dining area. We were served with scrumptious food. Telling you, the food was so delicious. Every bite was heaven. What do you expect... Uplands very rich ah... Then there was performances showed by the students themselves. This two girls sang 'The man who can't be moved'. They were very good at singing.

After that, we had to leave the dining area and proceed to the a small hall for the exhibition. The exhibition was very very very very beautiful. These are some of the exhibite... This was so cool. A guy used a one kind of software.

They calles this the black hole. But I think it looks like a passage to hellThey name this the pregnant woman on a ballThis is a face made with glass. It's it niceThis is my favourite cause at first it looks like a bridge but it's a tree actually taken from the bottom This is a picture of Vanessa Hudgens made from small little picturesThey call this 'Ferris whell of books'They named this 'A praying lady'This was the person who did all the pictures

Hope you enjoyed... See ya...

NIE was a success!!!

I post this blog is to tell you guys to join NIE but today I would like to show you guys my team this year. We finished everything in a rush but to me, it was beautiful. I must really give credit to Lim Kean Wooi and Loke Ren Zhang, for their effort towards this project. Let me introduce my team... By the way, we call our team 'That's enough' because the theme this year was 'Teen Angst' means problems we face as youth from smoking, to internet addiction. We chose this name because we wanted to let the youths of Malaysia know that there is always hope in life. There is always a choice in life. Anyway, back to the introducing...
This is Loke Ren Zhang. His a really smart kid and also a good friend. I chose him in my team because he is very hardworking and very helpful. He sacrifed a lot for this project. He is also very encouraging to me because when I'm down, he encourages me never give up and keep walking face up. His advice to me is very precious and helpful in life. His very humble and always good in many ways. Thanks Ren Zhang...!!!!!!!!!!
This is Kean Woi. His too really smart and also a good friend. He is very humble in his studies and character wise. His very good in computer and editing and stuff. I chose him because he always helps me a lot and as a friend, he is really a good one. His very honest and that's what makes this project a success. He is honest by telling us if he likes this or not and by doing that, it makes the project worth much. His actually our main editor. He did a fabolous job along with Ren Zhang but he still thinks it can be improved. Thanks Kean Woi!!!!!!!!!!!!
This is Wei Shan. He is very friendly and kind. His also a very patient person. He is very good Sejarah. Telling you... He is always score A for sejarah since the first test. His a very good friend. I chose him in my team because I need someone as patient as him to help me think of ideas. His also good in editing. He designs very nice. He designed Brother Paul's farewell banner in front of our school. Very nice la!!!! His also very supportive and hardworking. Thanks Wei Shan!!!!
This is Justin. Yeap... He is sleeping not dead...Anyway, his our main thinker of ideas. His a really creative guy and he thinks outside the box. He willingly borrowed us his house to snap pictures for this project. There was one picture where by he needed to step on the balcony and guess what, he did. Of course someone was holding his hand. I chose him because of his brain that contains valueble knowledge and ideas that helps us to make this project a success. Thanks a lot Justin!!!!!

I would also like to thank our parents, teachers (Especially Mr Liang for your guidance towards this project), my honourable tuition teacher, Mrs Loh, who willingly used her time to being interview at, the artists (Gareth,Joshua Ooi and Sarah Chong) and lastly Ong Ray Gan, for coming and support us by modelling for our photo op.

Back to the point, the project is actually called NIE (News Paper In Education). This project is for students all around Asia to show their talent. As you know, the theme for this year is Teen Angst. This is our topic:

1) Friends... We were told to design a magazine. So we called it 'The Essence of their Presence'. I'll post the essay another day.
2) The second one, we did on we putting on a mask all the time. We called it 'The Invincibe mask'
Before I pen off, I would like to thank everyone for making this project a success espcially my team members. I will post the essay another day. See ya...

Choral speakers are you ready !?!

The pressure was on. From the throat to the neck to the feet we had pain. Screaming and shouting across the hall could be heard. 'ENOUGH TEACHER, LET US REST' said us and the teacher replied 'NO! NOT GOOD ENOUGH...AGAIN'. The agony of leaving the hall was so strong but overall it was really fun. We got to give ideas on the lines that needed. There was pain and joy. I got to meet many new friends and know them much better. I did not expect choral speaking to be so fun. Our topic this year was about Global Warming. We had a good script thanks to Teacher Munira, Teacher Kulwinder and not forgetting our hardworking and never tired teacher, Miss Yeoh. Miss Yeoh was given the responsibilty to make sure we get the letters we were requied to. Teacher Munira taught us everything we had to know about choral speaking. She too taught us and trained us to perfection. BUT on that day, I did a mistake. It was so embarassing.... The audience didin't realise so who cares? Teacher Kulwinder was helping Teacher Munira train us. Her famous quatation was 'Want to get a slap, ah?'. She always aimed at Gaurav, as he was the joker in our team. Sorry I didn't get to show you guys the video of our choral speaking cause our camera man accidentaly deleted ours. These are some pictures of our intests practices during the holiday... Introducing the back row!!!!!!!!! That's my row. We were given 'special' attention as the back row gives a big impact to the performances. We were screamed! We were pressured by everyone to do our best. This is Raymond Teoh. Our high class conductor for many years. He knows a lot about choral speaking and he is very fun. His always very busy but he scarifed his time to come and help us out. We had a lot of fun with him as our conductor. He keeps very calm when we do mistakes and teaches us a lot of stuff.

Sorry but these are only my photos left after my laptop crashed. So sorry, but I'll post another one later on. See ya.... We won third place for your info... Bye....